How can I stop??

I still don't know why I can't stop pulling my hair out. I know it's wrong, I know that it might not grow back and still I pull. It's better than it used to be but I just want to stop!!! Sometimes I look in the mirror and find hairs to pull, knowing full well that I shouldn't. The hair at the front of my head is so thin! I can't imagine it growing back properly now. I still wear a volumiser and probably will for quite a while, at least that makes me look normal!! :(

Although the hair situation always haunts me and is always there, I do mainly just get on with it! Next week i'm away in Greece and so hopefully I will be able to relax and focus on leaving well alone!! The sunshine will also be rather nice :)

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  1. Balance Indefinite26 May 2010 at 15:40

    Hi Maggie,

    I just started my page to find people like you and me. I've been pulling for 20 years and working hard (again) to overcome the disease. You're not alone.

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  2. Maggie Valentine27 May 2010 at 22:58

    Hello! It's awful isn't it! I get so annoyed that I can't control myself, it always seems so silly! Good luck with the battle, and thank you for the comment :) x

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